Post-chair carrying Day 24
I found my little Fear Chair! It's very cute. Needs to be primed and painted. WILL go on my keychain. I WILL post a photo when it's painted. Will write about what it means as I go along...
Note about finding ones purpose in life. When it was clear to me, and it was OH SO clear to me that I should carry the original chair around symbolising Fear, the Universe/God collaborated in such a way that, as I drove to the thriftstore, I was 100% certain there would be a chair there. AND when I told the Universe/God it could only cost $7, because that's all I had in my pocket, I was certain I'd be able to afford it! And when I got to the thriftstore, I walked straight back to the corner of the store where I "knew" it would be. And, there were actually TWO identical chairs sitting there. Six ninety-nine apiece. There was zero Fear in that experience. There was 100% belief. And it went off gloriously. And the whole FCP was glorious (though not all easy-peasy).
Why do I not learn to Believe 100% and leave Fear at zero more often?
Actually, since doing the FCP I am happy with how low the Fear factor has been. But that Belief factor. That needs to come up a bit. A serious bit actually. And, I know they are related.
I think I need to do something to take care of myself. It's been a while. I'm not very good at that. There's been a lot of taking care of others lately plus the health issues. And I think I am a bit depleted. I tend to be much more courageous and Trusting when I take care of myself better. Hmmm....
It's been 3 years since I had a massage. That thought's been trickling into my consciousness lately. I think I'll call tomorrow. Writing it on my hand as a reminder right now....