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I really did finish this latest prayer flag by May 1st. What I DIDN't do was post the photos. I am still a bit slow to post sometimes. Doing a lot of work around that.... that visibility thing. I'm getting there. But for now I am here. In process. Also, I am working on creating a better process for getting photos of my works as I make them, since it's not practical to go to a professional with each individual piece.

 

So, here is the "Faith" flag from the series "The Three Graces."

 


Faith: first in series "The Three Graces"

20 x 20 inches

Fiber collage with freestyle machine stitching

 






Detail of "Faith"

 

Presently I am working on "Hope" for the same series. I realize I need to blog more about my process in making these. It really has been a powerful experience and continues to teach me, heal me and enrich my life. Tomorrow, I will explain more...

 


Last night I attended a gathering of about 25 woment in a home for some time with Rashani Rea. I suggest you "Google" her. She's lived an amazing life. She is the most present person I've ever encountered. It was an amazing evening.

 

We took over 3 hours to introduce ourselves. Here's why: each person had selected a card with one of Rashani's collage images and a quote on it. As each introduced herself, then would read the card aloud and tell how the quote related to her life. We each in our own ways were guided deep within to touch the essence of what the quote touched. It was remarkable and powerful and beautiful.

 

My card was one of the simpler ones. "It is in loving that we become gentle." Love has been a theme for the past year and a half just as surely as has Fear. At this time in my life, I feel as if looking at Fear closely has and continues to peel away at illusions about myself (last week I experienced a breakthrough that answered life trauma dating back to my toddler days) and about life. If I am really present, truly here, now, me,... I'd say love is all I am have feel know. 

 

I am exploring Trust these days...


Should finish this tomorrow. I don't think I've ever posted a photo of a prayer flag in process. It has a thin film over it at this stage and not all of the stitching is finished; but I took this photo to send to my husband today and thought the little caterpillar was just sweet enough to introduce to you all tonight. 




"Faith" on the sewing machine. First in the series "The three Graces: Faith Hope and Charity."











Installed by the artist for her studio on 4/27/15. Looks pretty good for a freebie that spent over a decade in a shed! And NO leaks! Feeling good....


Today I put in a sink. Then I took it all apart again. Pedestal sink (if you've ever put one in, you'll understand). Apparently, when those experts say "it's important to NOT tighten plastic fittings too tight," they aren't addressing someone with arthritis. The fittings needed to be tighter. BUT, after a mop-up and a few hours to let the plywood floor dry and I'll be heading up there to get that thing back together. I'll have someone double check the junctions. And plenty of rags on hand in case....

 

This is important to note. I'm putting in the sink in my studio! It's been years of up and down stairs with brushes and buckets. I've always just counted myself VERY fortunate to have the space and enjoyed the exercise. But when I found myself sinking into the mire of self-doubt last week, it occurred to me that taking a risk and doing something I've never done before would be just what I needed to boost myself and, well, I'm getting a sink in the studio as a bonus!


My blog post from the Chair Affair didn't save! Argh... oh well,... here it is!
This is my last photo with the Fear Chair. It was taken April 17th at the Artists Reception for the "Chair Affair" fundraiser for the Portland non-profit, The Community Warehouse. I have since learned that the chair did indeed sell. I didnt realize I would be curious about who bought it or why but I find that I am...

Kind of a delightful thing to think about.

 

Fair-thee-well-my old companion of 51 days! May your new owner realize the truths you carry and build upon your story!



Here is the last-finished prayer flag. It's not part of a set, that I know of as yet. Who knows what will come to perhaps join it in a set (?). The photo's just taken with my phone. I'm still not adept at editing photos taken from a phone. Bear with me... And I don't want to have a professional take photos until I've got a few more pieces together, to make the set-up fee work to greater advantage. I'm not selling these on the internet yet anyway. Still working on marketing strategizing... learning learning... (see more below photo)

 

 

I am working presently on another set. At tryptich. Something about threes is very engaging for me. Anyway, it is the three graces "Faith, Hope and Charity." I'm still sewing "Faith," very happy with it. Excited for the set. It's a bit more uplifting than "Up from the Broken Heart," which one would think would be uplifting but in reality, this image is very dark I think. It expresses the difficulty of pulling ones self up from the experience of feeling her/his heart having been broken. Yet too, the heart is not shattered; It is broke but it is broke open as well. The image came from a conversation with a friend, who at the same time as my own heart had been broken, was going through a divorce. We talked of our experiences but the phrase broken hearted never came up. For some reason, we gravitated naturally to phrasing our experiences as "healing from the broke-open heart." I think with every heartbreak, there is the opportunity to see it as an opening of the heart or a shattering. I chose and I hopefully in the future will choose (heartbreak is inevitable as part of the human experience) the former. The devastation is the same, the pain, the death, the "undoing," as I called it in last nights post is the same; but with heartbreak there is a choice. The choice is to respond with  love or to respond with fear. With Love is openness, curiousity even,  and a confidence that, even though I can't know what life will look like now, I know it will continue, I will continue. Even a wondering what life will mean to me through this devastation. The Fear response would be a shatterment then a gathering of the pieces and building a wall around them to protect what was broken as if THAT was all that was left. (I've made that choice before in life too)

 

"Up from the broken heart," IS dark, but it is not a fearful piece. It's also not particularly pretty, but I think it has beauty. There is a strength in it. The original offers a betterl look at  the details too that express the vulnerability of the experience of rising from the broke-open heart. The skin is green and rippled, as if raw and new. The skin at rebirth is very tender indeed. Yet the vulnerability doesn't indicate weakness either but simply the true state of being when one experiences loss, shedding the old and emerging into something completely foreign-feeling. Such is not weak at all, but it DOES FEEL extremely vulnerable. Like a tender shoot rising from a seed, we are green and softened -- and we strengthened to rise above the dark earth and face the sun and rain and winds of continued life.